6th Chamber
Despite the hellacious past couple months that I dare call 1 semestre of college, I managed to stay on track with my grades and am still eligable for my commissioning. On a side note, I saw Megan again, at least I think I saw her...It's not the first time my eye's have played tricks with her face. Nothing like having old scars crop up once and a while (it reminds you that you're still alive) . With the worry of college aside for now, I've been able to focus on something else, something I've been trying to push away for a long, long time.
I can't stop thinking about her (that sounds a little cliche), I find myself lost in wonder about Kris and her feelings for me. I don't know which sides of me she likes, so I don't know what to give her and what to keep from her. The more I think about it, the more determined I am to give love one last chance(last bullet in the chamber). I don't want to hurt her (that never stopped you from hurting others), and something tells me that she's strong enough that I couldn't. But that fear lurks inside me... I'll ask her tomorrow (how many times have you said that?). If she doesn't think it's a good idea, thats all for the best (even if it kills you). I'll find comfort remaining as the tear catcher. But if she wants to give it a try, I pray that I've become strong enough and wise enough to make the right decisions and do what's best for her.
"Please God, if you're out there, please keep that pure angel safe from my beastly hands."
I can't stop thinking about her (that sounds a little cliche), I find myself lost in wonder about Kris and her feelings for me. I don't know which sides of me she likes, so I don't know what to give her and what to keep from her. The more I think about it, the more determined I am to give love one last chance(last bullet in the chamber). I don't want to hurt her (that never stopped you from hurting others), and something tells me that she's strong enough that I couldn't. But that fear lurks inside me... I'll ask her tomorrow (how many times have you said that?). If she doesn't think it's a good idea, thats all for the best (even if it kills you). I'll find comfort remaining as the tear catcher. But if she wants to give it a try, I pray that I've become strong enough and wise enough to make the right decisions and do what's best for her.
"Please God, if you're out there, please keep that pure angel safe from my beastly hands."
posted by Cruel Angel at 21:35
1 Comments:
you are incredibly wise.
for such a young man...i am constantly amazed at your insight. yes I know I come across as wimsical and flighty, and ridiculous, but as you know yourself...we all wear masks....so I think you will make the right decisions where your love is concerned, not that it matters in least what I think....but I do.
talk to her.
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